Spark

Spark
by Raederle Phoenix
2005; Junior Year


Emptiness 

where there once was perfection.
I had been the selection, 

turned the wrong direction
and at this election 

I was cast away.
Needless to say 

in this;
dark, stale, bleak, musty room.
Stark, pale, weak, dusty gloom.
I remember the red moon,
the dark beach,
holding you like a leach.

Walking through this void of emotion,
and this lack of devotion.
Throwing myself away,
I woke up to another dreary day.
It was all as if to say,
“hey, you try, you cry,
and you try again,
but no matter what,
you’re just falling in a rut.”
With that thought,
you’re wanna give up,
give in, dig in and dig out
and wail about,
and down comes my sail,
frail,
the boat sinks...

I’m at the edge of a cliff inside my mind,
I’m just walking around blind.
Then, inside the nullified insides there is a red spark as his lips touch mine,
and the blade is removed, and the emotions are reproved.
I no longer care,
because I’ve got something more than fair.

Persian Prince

Persian Prince
by Raederle Phoenix
2005; Junior Year

White sands I've never seen,
Clear water I've never dreamed,
So clear and keen in my mind,
This sight could drive you blind.

Light shining like a sunset,
Night though it is you bet.
So sweet, so sour, so bright,
around this figure, what a sight.

If only you could see this,
Then all the war would cease.
This feeling, a perfect relief.
This is My Prince of Peace.

New Start

New Start
by Raederle Phoenix
2005
Junior Year

I'm an optimist, and my glass is half full...

I'm a lover,
I'm a sucker,
and I've taken the time to bother,
and take you in like a mother,
and you left,
and it'll turn out for the best,
for me at least,
you dirty beast,
you're loss,
shut up,
see who's boss,
and ...
I just don't care,
how it wasn't really fair,
and I'm just don't care,
the way I see you lookin' from over there,
and I just wont stare,
not anymore,
nothing more for you to score,
because what was before,
is now dead.
It's all been said,
and I've been led to see a new light,
and I've found it quite bright,
and everything is right,
even though you're out of sight.
I wont put up a fight,
and I wont come back.
Hit the sack,
and swallow a fact,
lay back,
type on this mac,
and see that I have all that I need,
right here to feed,
and breed a new seed
to lead a new generation of heart broken teens,
and sparkin' up fiends,
and here I am,
not giving a damn.
I've passed my own exam,
and I've come to find,
that I'm not so blind,
and I'm not so kind,
but I've come to find,
I love my own mind.

I Want

I want; I need:
You give; You Have.
By Raederle Phoenix

2009-2010


I need the essential sensuality,
I want the perfect personality.
I'll show you my hospitality,
If you'll treat me gentlemanly.

I'll give you love as your reward,
So don't come looking for awards.
My home isn't your personal ward,
Bring your sanity if you can afford

To buy me flowers and dinner,
For a true sign take this as a glimmer
Of hope, don't fret about being a sinner,
If you want to be the real winner;

Take me to the real girl parks,
Roller coasters and vicious snarks,
Hide behind the bushes for a quick lark,
with all your affection, sure to hit the mark.

I don't want Gucci or Gabbana,
You see what I really wanna
Have is your time, perhaps in a sauna.
Give me real food and a Honda.

Give me your essential sensuality,
Show me your perfect personality,
I'll give you all my honesty, my loyalty,
My love, kisses and all of my vitality.

Because I'm an old fashioned girl,
I want to clean and cook swirls.
I'll wear my hair straight or in curls,
Whatever you dare, that's how it unfurls.

I'm not in this for gluttony,
I want to be inside your discovery,
Of a girl unafraid of fantasy,
For your love, you get ecstasy.

I'm looking for some inspiration,
Hard work and perspiration,
Be my muse for my creations,
The cause of all my elation.

Have no fear of betrayal,
Things won't ever get stale,
As long as we're learning together,
There's no reason for this to fail.


By Raederle Phoenix
2009-2010

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Nothing but Names

Nothing but Names

By Raederle Phoenix

2007-2009

I am your lover, your slave.

I’m a typical woman to my grave.

I’m a bitch and a brat,

I’m as slick as a cat.

I’m pretty and plain, not fat.

I’m a trickster, not to be trusted.

You say a lot, until my heart is busted.

Held up so high, burned down and defy;

On praise and joy, yet another ploy.

I’m a lover, a slave, a liar to the grave.

I’m a bitch, a brat, a player, a cat.

I’m stupid, retarded, demented, twisted.

I’m the girl next door, nevermore.

Plain as the rain, easily slain.

You like me like this, you like me in pain.

I have everything to lose, everything to gain.

Go ahead, call me one more name.

I’m a lover, a slave, a bitch to the grave.

I’m a brat, a trickster, a woman, and I crave.

I’m stupid, twisted, demented, retarded.

I’m dirty. I’m crazy. I’m flirty. I’m lazy.

I’m a typical, lying bitch; words hazy.

A snake, a sliver, totally untrustworthy.

I’m alone picking a daisy.

He loves me, he love me not.

He loves me... Fuck – He loves me not.

I’m a girl, a babe, a sweety, a shorty.

I’m a brat, I’m a bitch, it’s all the same.

How come I’m nothing despite all my names?

By Raederle Phoenix West

2007-2009

👉🏻 Note: This was written about a specific relationship that I was in from 2007 to 2009 with my third love. This poem was demonstrating how I took on the names he called me, and what it did to my self-esteem to be treated that way. These are not representations of how I ever actually believed myself to be. It's a performance, a poem, to represent an emotional experience. 🙏🏻

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Dread

 

Dread
by Raederle Phoenix
2006-2007

One-hundred-percent dread,

Drumming to the beat of the dead,

Humming to this emotion fed,

Crumbs, the feeling in your bed,

Fluff the pillow, lay your head;

Down and feel the anticipation;

Foreboding and lack of concentration,

Holding onto a glass of fermentation,

Forwarding the path of procrastination,

Folding into a pattern of degradation.

I’m sauntering on a path of bleak mud,

I’m walking with creak and thud,

I am sinking deeper into this crud.

I’m circling a stale expectation of;

Grooving to a silent sickness that curdles my blood.

~Raederle Phoenix
2006-2007

Note: I was sixteen when I wrote this and experimenting with multi-rhymes (bleak mud / creak and thud) wherever I could fit them in. I was also in arguably the darkest period of my life. I'd been through a house fire, a move, a violent on-and-off relationship, drug experimentation, suicidal urges, and a desperation to find something better for myself. Thankfully, I did. But the darkness in this poem reflects that period of my life and how it felt.

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Communal Wood

Communal Wood
By Raederle Phoenix
2006-2011

I want to rise at eleven,

in an elegant cottage in a wood,

and kickback by seven,

in a place too warm for a hood.

I want to live in a real community,

where everyone is listening,

built around the trees and into small clearings,

where I’d lounge in the breeze never fearing.

I want to live in loving situations,

no smelly gas stations,

no crime situations, drugged sensations,

evil temptations, meaningless salutations,

degradations, and one night relations.

Yes, I want to live where it’s sunny,

and where no one laughs when it’s not funny.

I want to live where I can stop feeling crummy,

a place that doesn’t rely on paper money.

I want to live in a cream organic village,

where no one would dream of theft or pillage;

I want to live where everyone stops to smile,

with hot springs, berry plots, wits, and wiles.

I want to live where there are horses without fleas,

where everyone has dreams and dirty knees,

where nobody needs keys, or master degrees,

where no one ever forgets to say “please.”

I want to live without fear of demise,

I want to live where no one ever cries,

and instead of all of these sad funerals,

we’ll have grand parties when one dies.

I want to live where I can hold my head high,

where everyone is gullible, because no one ever lies.

If everything were left to my whim,

I’d take down everything grim,

and replace it with beauty,

and cover the world with a flowered trim.

I want to live,

in a quiet little town,

where all can give,

with no mechanical sounds.

Let’s live off the land.

Let’s live where love is all that’s grand.

Let’s live where gold is like sand,

with none of society’s bold demands.

Let’s live without oil, trouble, and toil.

Let’s live without greed, toxins, and addictive needs.

Let’s live without politics, bloods, and crypts.

Let’s move somewhere far away,

Let’s run to where I’d never say,

“I wish it could move somewhere sunny…

Somewhere where my nose was never runny.”

By Raederle Phoenix
April 2006 – January 2011

Minor Edits on April 21st 2025

Previously titled: Forest Community

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These lyrics are the original work of Raederle Phoenix West. You may share them digitally for non-commercial purposes, as long as full credit is given and the text remains unaltered. Any commercial use, performance, or adaptation requires written permission.